I also do not think it is anyones business what i do, to my self, in the privacy of my home, to help me to ease my nerves with out buddying up with big pharm like so many of u have now done i see.
Blessed be,
Why must ppl always insist on consequences with everything? Why cant there be functioning “addicts” in this world of labels u all insist on using for everything? Why cant a person just be allowed to enjoy something and not constantly be degraded for doing so?
Hi everybody! I have been looking at posts on narcs and narc abuse on here and if has really helped me out a lot. I am currently struggling with my situation and need some advice/support.
I met a narc last year, everything seemed to good to be true. Love bombing, always texting calling and taking me on dates. Everything changed when someone warned me about him out in public in front of him and who he is. This caused a conflict with us and the love bombing seized.
he would tell me that everything is okay and i can come and talk. He would set a time limit on me and kick me out after that.
he would then text me like everything was fine and we hung out again and after that he completely ghosted me for one week. He came back and texted me a week later laughing about the ghosting and acting like nothing had happened.
he continued to text me ( not like in the beginning) make plans with me, then on the day of the plans he would just ghost me. One day he would act interested the next silence.
i contacted him a month later and he acted like nothing happened. He was on a vacation and sent me a picture of another woman ( someone he allegedly met on the trip) to strike a reaction but i never gave him one. After the trip he came to my place and was extremely rude, accusing me of going on dates with a bunch of men. The next day he accused me of being an alcoholic and that he wanted nothing to do with me but said well maybe we can be "friends" then ghosted me
i assumed at this point it was over and i would never hear from him again. He contacted me on the holiday a month later acting like everything was great. We ended up hanging out a month or so later and when we hung out it went well, i thought things were going in the right direction.
after we hung out.. silence. I would try to text him and if he replied it would be very short then he just stopped replying. He ghosted me for almost three months. I thought he was done this time and of course he popped up again like nothing happened. At this point i was getting sick of if so i questioned him as to why he dissapeared and always does this. Of course he had some sob story about a injury and family member dying of cancer. I felt pity for him and he gave me an apology.. so i took him back stupidly.
things seemed to be going smooth for a couple months, of course until his family member died and his injury got better he never contacted me and was distant. Menawhile, i was there for him during the difficult time for him. He lied to me about the funeral and never wanted to chat. I was chasing him and he would always claim nothing was wrong but when i said i thought he used me when he was down he could not handle it and would always tell me he didnt care and to go away. I would get so upset i would try texting him to work it out he would barelt respond and if he did he would not be nice about it.
we did hang out a couple times after that, he would ignore me after. One day i was like hey i think you are seeing someone else, and i was like well ixam seeing someone so no problem if you are he said " buy bye good luck with your new guy stop contacting me" i was devastated and tried to get into contact with him for weeks then i just gave up and accepted it was over. He ended up contacting me a month later acting like everything was fine. He wanted to go out and have drinks i told him i would. He and i both seemed to have a great time. He ends up ignoring me again. I kept texting him trying to figure out what was wrong. He kept saying everything was fine and i said ok can we hang out again? He said maybe i was like why? He just kept saying maybe …
our last conversation we had… i said what is wrong ? He said nothing is wrong everything is fine. I asked him why he keeps saying maybe. He said " maybe but i dont want to see you right now" i said why? He saix " im just not feeling it, if i wanted to date i would" i said why did you contact me less then a week ago wanting to go out? He said i didnt.. even though he did. So i said should i just move on or what? He said whatever you want to do. So i said that he was really confusing me and asked him if he had anything more to say before i move on? My messages were turning green so i panicked he blocked me and reacted irrationally. I said " omg did you block me? My messages are not going through. Even texted him on my work phone asking what was up. And called him twice ( please dont judge me i know it is pathetic i never was this type of girl before him) so he replied and said " Ok I'll block you now" then immedietly blocked me. He has never blocked me before since I have met him he will just ghost. Is this ths final discard aka " grand finale? Did i just push him too far?
this has upset me so much its hard to even function.
I DO NOT feed into the narrative, i dont give a fuck what ppl have to say, about me. About my mouth, about my style or about how fucking loud my harley is, IDGAF ..im not here to please any of u, im most likely gonna make u cry if u stick around for too long, and if it makes u feel better and sleep better at night to have to label me an addict then heres a big fat sharpie for u to do so my darling, it starts with an A and then has a set of double letters, lol, just like ASSHOLE, is what my 3rd grade teacher told us to help us remember how to spell it after our D.A.R.E. program…
Where as acording to the “labelers”, im a “drug addict”….u will NEVER hear those words come out of my mouth in reference to myself or anyone else as well, for u see, im not one of u, i do not judge, i do not label and i do not assume anything, ever if i can help it, about anyone or situation.
Xoxo. Busty
How do I complain on a boy coming to marriage with me without my involvement despite no connection with him though he had an illegal affair?
Do i feel bad about any of it?? Hell no, why should i feel bad because ppl feel the need to stick their noses in other ppls business? I dont…nope..so i guess its ur call is as good as mine, no wait, i dont feel any need to trouble myself with such bullshit calls so its all on u, i got nothing here…
I digress, i 1st smoked weed when i was just 13 yrs old, after the very 1st initial hit, i declaired to all present that i would do that every chance i had for the remainder of all of my days on earth..a statement that i, now some 37 yrs later, have proudly upheld with the very best of my ability, pride in my heart for having found such an amazing mood changer and blessed to of been aquainted with some of the best gardners in the industry the majority of these years as well…..ive never had a drug charge, dont intend on ever having one and we get along just fine so there is no problem to speak of and i think after all these yrs i would totes ace a test but ive never yet taken one all the same…
